For the past couple months I have been majorly stressing about jobs and what I am going to do with my life. BUgirl has been amazing so far and taught me alot about myself and also others.
Something it really has revealed to me though is the heart that I have for ministry. I long to be in ministry!!
The hard part was determining what I want to do and where I want to go. So, I asked God for help!! (smart I know ;)
Before any of this, before this year, my dream has always been to go to Hillsong College in Australia. I first heard about it when I was around 15. It really inspired me but I figured that I would never go there so why bother dreaming? Since then it has always been in my mind. I often found myself going to their website, reading the course outlines, studying each page, but then finding myself at the prices. After I saw that page I knew I may as well stop looking and stop dreaming.
This year however, I still found myself wanting to go and no matter what I tried to do I could not get out of it. I looked at soo many different schools and so many different programs but NONE are what I want. None feel like thats where I am being called. Some seem like they could be but every time I looked into it, it kept leading me back to hillsong...
Which lead me to the conclusion.
Maybe God is trying to tell me something. He gave me a couple verses to look up and they all had to do with having confidence in God and to stop worrying. Finally I said okay.
I remember the night. I was sitting on the bed and it hit me. I need to go to Hillsong. I have never been so passionate about anything and I feel like I am being called there.
The day after I finally said yes, finally said "Okay God, I know I cant afford this but I am going to trust that if you want me to go you will provide." I get a message about a job offer for one day that is going to pay a generous amount of money!! He is already starting to provide!!
Which leads me to the conclusion of my blog.
Tomorrow I hope to apply to Hillsong College in Sydney Australia.
I would appreciate everyone of your prayers! I really need them! Please pray that if God wants me at Hillsong, I will get accepted, and he will continue to provide financially and prepare me emotionally!
Thanks!!!!
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